Friday, 21 April 2017

Realistic Character Development

Act 1 Scene 1

When your story begins,
you don't remember how old you are.
But you are big;
Big eyes filled with big dreams;
Standing on the precipice of youth,
And you’ve already envisioned yourself halfway down.

Act 1 Scene 2

You have magic powers;
You can feel things that aren’t there.
Example: When he looks at you,
The room grows warmer,
And you swear to god you can feel fire.

Act 1 Scene 3

He makes you wonder -
About the endlessness of the universe,
about the purpose you serve,
about the crinkles near his eyes and stories tucked in their folds.

Act 1 Scene 4

He makes you question -
the size of the universe,
the pointlessness of your existence,
the way his eyebrows form a frown when you put on your favourite dress.

Act 1 Scene 5

You choose your clothes with care;
You frame your hair exactly the right way;
You even dare at makeup.

When he looks at you,
You don’t want to die.
You simply want to breathe in
And never breathe out again.

Act 2 Scene 1

He tells you that the world is cruel,
That he wants what is best for you.
He tells you they don’t like your youth,
That they don’t like people with possibilities
But all you can hear is -
They don’t like you.

Act 2 Scene 2

When you stood at the edge and peered,
You imagined you would float downwards.
But you are burdened by your body.
This feeling isn’t floating, it’s falling.
You feel heavy; ready to sink.

Act 2 Scene 3

When you look at him,
You feel ants crawling up your body.
You are drowning in a swarm of tiny insects,
And you can’t remember the last time you believed in magic.

Act 2 Scene 4

It happens over a slice of pizza
Shared with an old friend,
Someone you knew before you knew him.
And you realize that this is your story, not his.

Act 2 Scene 5

You feel your fingertips sparking,
Your eyes contain a multitude of possibilities,
And then you stop free falling.
Instead, you rise.
And as you rise, the curtain falls.  

Tuesday, 18 April 2017

The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo - Stieg Larsson | Spoiler Free

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“18% of the women in Sweden have at one time been threatened by a man.”

The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo contains many stories, as far as books go, but perhaps at its core, it tells the tale of the horrors of women in the Sweden of Larsson’s narrative. And so the book begins, with a new statistic introducing each of the four parts it is split into. 

The story is told through the eyes of Mikael Blomkvist, a disgraced journalist, who is hired to solve the mysterious events from nearly half a century ago – the disappearance of Harriet Vanger. Blomkvist has a singular motive – to restore his credibility and that of his publication, Millennium - and confining himself to an island and uncovering the truth from 46 years ago seems the way to achieve it. Surprisingly, the girl in 'The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo' – Lisbeth Salander, enters the main conflict of the plot much later in the story.

Friday, 14 April 2017

How It Ended, From the Beginning

When asked later, by her own damned self, what possessed to her to willing crawl under the figurative bus, Yashika would blame the narrow corridor. That, combined with the rose-scent of Apoorvi’s hair oil induced self-destructive tendencies in her. 

It began when she was summoned to the school counsellor’s office with Yashika. Or perhaps, it truly began two weeks prior to that, over a school project. In many ways, Yashika insisted all her life had been leading up to that moment. But truthfully, how it began wasn’t as important as how it ended. 

The walk to Shilpa ma’am’s office was an awkward one. Neither girl said a word; each musing over why were asked to visit the counsellor. Worry had taken the shape of lines on Apoorvi’s forehead as she recalled the events of last week. Yashika felt her heart hammering in her chest as she replayed the events from a fortnight back.

Thursday, 6 April 2017

Indian Economics: An Ode to Failure

When I open my Indian Economics textbook, 
The numbers leap out,
The government expenditure, the foreign direct investment, the tax revenue, 
All rising higher and higher
I can feel them with my entire body
Till they settle at the base of my throat
Like dust in the wake of dry wind.
They barricade the fear inside my chest
And I wonder - Is it possible to breathe again.

My brain is a swirling mess of statistics,
Interspersed with self-doubt, 
Till it drips onto my soul
And no matter how hard I scrub, 
There is a spot on the inside of my wrists,
And the back of my earlobe, 
Where the humiliation won’t wash off
Instead, it grows stronger 
With every beat of my heart 
And I wonder – Is it possible to go on from here.

It drips out onto my soul, 
Something sticky and hateful that covers me whole
Till I forget where I end 
And where the disillusion begins
And I wonder – Is it possible to find myself again. 
It is. It is. It is. 

Tuesday, 17 January 2017

Anne of Green Gables - L. M. Montgomery | Spoiler Free

As a part of the 30 Book Challenge, I had to Read a book you read in highschool.

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"There's such a lot of different Annes in me. I sometimes think that is why I'm such a troublesome person. If I was just the one Anne it would be ever so much more comfortable, but then it wouldn't be half so interesting." - L. M. Montgomery, Anne of Green Gables. 

In 8th standard, on an off chance, I picked up a book from my school library. And this random story about an orphan girl who gets accidently adopted by a pair of siblings quickly earned a high position on my shelf. I had devoured the rest of the books (a total of 8) within weeks. However a tricky thing about memory is that it only makes you remember the good parts. So when I revisited Anne of Green Gables induced by nostalgia, I was apprehensive (and rooting for it to win me all over again).

Tuesday, 10 January 2017

Wishful Drinking - Carrie Fisher | Spoiler Free

As a part of the 30 Book Challenge, I had to Read a biography/an autobiography.

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"If my wasn't funny it would just be true, and that is unacceptable." - Carrie Fisher, Wishful Drinking.

When I first heard the news of Carrie Fisher’s death, I was upset and surprised; surprised that I was upset for I had no cause to be so. I never consciously looked at her as an inspiration because my knowledge of her life was limited, having seen only the Star Wars series a year back. And so Wishful Drinking became a way for me to know her, truthfully and in her own words. 

The autobiography reads like an erratic conversation with the author, an author who is a product of ‘Hollywood inbreeding’. Fisher talks candidly about the industry, her life and people in them. She recalls her life with a whip-sharp wit, a delightful mask of sarcasm and unabashed honesty. Her ability to laugh anything off makes the book a joy to read. Fisher doesn’t mask or hide from touching upon sensitive subjects. As a result, she becomes real, like someone whom you can touch and won’t fade into nothingness. It is an easy, short and immersive read and even the slowest of readers can devour it whole within 5 days.

Tuesday, 3 January 2017

Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov | Spoiler Free

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“He broke my heart. You merely broke my life.” - Vladimir Nabokov, Lolita. 

Clementine Von Radics, the poet behind ‘Mouthful of Forevers’, has written a poem called ‘Lolita Addresses Her Author’ which became my first introduction to Lolita. The poem left its imprint in my brain but it never made sense. And so when I saw Lolita on a shelf, I picked it up.

Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov is the autobiography of Humber Humbert, a self-described poet and pervert. And both these descriptions ring true. Humbert Humbert, two names, refer to the two, often contrasting, personalities that make up the man. Humbert writes this book from prison about the object of his love and attention – Lolita, a 12-year-old girl. It is the story of how Humbert, a paedophile, sexually assaults and manipulates Lolita to take absolute control of her life. Even her name, Dolly Haze, is replaced by Humbert assigned Lolita.